You receive a beautiful white square wax burner which for me is so different I never have seen a square one which is something which is going to stand out in my collection of round burners. Something else which is different is the fact that this burner is two parts the top is where you place the little cubes of wax and the bottom is where you actually put the tea light which you are burning. I have never seen one which completely separates before. This company really are a lot of firsts for me
This is the first post of blogmas which is super exciting for me as it the first time I have attempted to do this so lets hope I can complete it. For me instead of trying to only post up to the big day I am trying to post every single day this month as we are having two Christmas’s the second on New Years Day so lets see how I get on with this.
Today I am sharing with you Jess’s advent calendar she is not a huge fan of chocolate just like me and her Daddy. However, Jess loves books she tries to read them herself which is so cute and reading her a bedtime story is this something want to do in the near future now she is getting big enough and i feel like it would be some amazing just us time.
I decided that I was not going to select all Christmas books due to the fact I wanted to be able to read them to her after Christmas and did not want them all super festive. Another thing to note is the that some of these books are board books so she can read them herself without ripping the pages and some are normal which she can use but we can have for bedtimes stories as well.
I have been planning this for a while and these books have come from a range of places including home bargains, amazon ,tkmaxx and charity shops this was in order to still be able to do it cheap enough as it is not one of her Christmas presents.
Here is the list of books which are included in her advent calendar:
Jolly Santa’s Big Delivery
Happy Reindeer Busy Night
Santa’s Busy Night
Snowman’s Perfect Present
Silly Snowman’s Helpful Friend
Reindeer’s First Flight
Princess Baby On The Go
Good Night Daddy
We’re Going on a bear hunt
My bedtime story book
Disney Storybook Collection
The Large Family-Mr Large in Charge
The Large Family- Five Minutes Peace
The Large Family-All in one place
The Large Family-A piece of cake
The Large Family- A quiet night in
Ready Steady Jump
Mines bigger than yours
That’s not funny
Who’s in the loo
The pet you get
Today I am going to share a personal post with you I should be starting my third year exactally at the time this post goes up . This could be a long post so make sure that you are sitting comfortably. Before I start I will say that I have not mentioned this previously because of the fact that I thought that people may judge me and I was scared of the response which I could have received.
Way back in June on my boyfriends 21st birthday I found out that I was 3+ weeks pregnant at the time I though that even though I don’t agree with abortions I would have one because of the fact that we live miles apart and I was just about to complete the second year of my degree. However this is where this story gets a bit more complex. I found at I was actually 26 weeks pregnant which that is over the legal abortion limit which meant I would have to continue with the pregnancy.
This is when I started looking into adoption because I wanted to make sure that the buddle of joy which I had created could have the best life the could something which I didn’t think I could provide due to my circumstances at the time. I will admit this was one of the scariest times of my life I was still living in my uni city which was 100+ miles away from my family.
On the 14th Sepetember I thought I was going to the midwife for a routine blood pressure check because it was slightly high the time before however I had just drank coffee but she wanted to check this was why and not some other reason. She measured my bump and noticed that it was 2cm smaller than the reading which she had taken a week previously a day before my due date. She referred me to the hospital for a scan to see if everything was ok telling me to expect a call in the next few days with a appointment for my scan. Within two hours of my midwife appointment I was having a scan to check everything this is when they found that I had a low amount of fluid surrounding the baby. This was when I was sent to the day unit to see what they thought about inducing me as I was already 4 days overdue and booked in to be induced anyway on the 19th. Around 6 o’clock I was taken to a private room where they told me they would be starting inducing me that night they allowed me to phone my parents who started the journey over however I knew they would have to go back home that night due to work. However I needed them because of the fact I did not even have my hospital bag with me due to not expecting to be admitted.
At 8pm the started to induce me by giving me the first tablet they said that if it did not work within 6 hours which it might not I would have to have another one at 2am the next morning. Just after they had started this my mum came however due to it not being visiting times she was only allowed a few minutes with me and allowed to drop my bag over. She already had a trip over to my house booked for the next day anyway as she had the Wednesday and Thursday off work. I was forced to say bye to my mum knowing she would be back in Chester at 5pm the next night.
It reached 2am and nothing had happened which meant that I need the second tablet but the baby heart rate would not settle down enough for them to be able to do it till around 3.15am and now all I wanted to do was sleep. At this time I was told no matter what I would be going to labour ward at 7am to have the drip which would work. Unfortunate for me labour ward was busy but now I was not alone due to my social worker coming to see me and staying till 5pm when she finished work which was nice of her. I got really uncomfortable I was strapped to a heart rate monitor for the baby and my back was hurting. Forcing me to have a cold can of coke and cold compresses applied to my back to try and reduce the pain.
Finally my waters broke at around 3pm which was 12 hours after the last tablet that I never actually did not get that drip. I was told as soon as a bed became available I would be transferred down to labour ward this finally happened around 5pm. Once I got down there they attached me again to a heart rate monitor and noticed that babies heart rate was not high enough and they were not happy at all. They told me that they were going to have to prep me for surgery just in case I need a c section. Minutes later when my mum finally arrived at the hospital I was prepped and told that I could keep in labour but I was only 3cm and baby could get in more distress but they wouldn’t be able to know until they could get the head and take blood. Basically I was being told I have no choice I was having a section I remember crying on my mum and asking her if she would come in with me which she did even though she was sat way back because one of the athnetists knew I was scared and was talking to me all the way through I loved him taking my mind off what was happening.
I remember being asked if I wanted to know the gender of the baby I had I said yes as I knew I had to name them I had been told by the adoption team. I told them that I didn’t want to see the baby after they had being born so they took them over to the side of the room I couldn’t see weighed them gave them an injection I had consented to. They asked me if I wanted to let my mum see the baby I said it was up to her which she chose to and then the baby left theatre before me to be dressed by my mum who chose to do it and then off to neonatal off they went waiting for me to be discharged and the foster parents to come and collect. The nurse who was looking after my baby asked if I wanted some pictures so I said well I don’t have my camera but can my mum go and take my phone and do some this was allowed the only photos I thought I was going to get.
Back in my room on labour ward I ended up losing a lot of blood and being attached to 3 drips and having my blood pressure checked very 15 mins and a midwife sat with me all night. This resulted in me having to blood trasfussions in the morning after I nearly passed out in the shower. This could have been due to my iron levels getting down to 77 when it should be 100. My blood pressure also got drastically low it ended 70/30 which is dangerously low. I think I scared everyone in the hospital I was told that I would have had the crash team if I had done this when I had been transferred upstairs.I was taken up around 4pm back to the private room which was where I told I would be for 2/3 days till I had recovered.
I had been told any time I wanted to see my baby just to ask a midwife and they would ring neo and tell them to bring her up or I could go down. Shortly before 6.30 I pressed the buzzer and asked if I could go down the midwife was off hand and said oh why you changed your mind. I replied no but I just want to have a cuddle I have been told that it should be fine. I finally got to met the baby which I had carried for the past 9 months I must admit I have not seen anything or anyone so perfect. I spent an hour down there before I had to back that night was one of the worst of my life because of the fact that I knew I wouldn’t see them again due to the adoption. This is when I made the decision which changed my life forever. I decided that I couldn’t go through with the adoption and I decided that I was going to keep her and bring her home with me. I have taken a gap year and then I am looking at going back to Chester to finish my final year however I may transfer to a uni closer to home.
I would love you all to meet baby Jess born 15/9/15 at 19.16.
Please don’t judge me for what I have done