Tips On Looking After Your Garden During The Winter

Your garden is likely to not get much attention in comparison to the rest of your home. Perhaps you don’t particularly enjoy gardening, or your outdoor space isn’t that appealing. However, looking after it is important as a lot of it will tend to suffer during the colder months. Here are a few tips on looking after your garden during the winter.

Have A Clear Up

Firstly, it’s good to be able to start with a clean and blank canvas when it comes to a change of season. Look at the current state of some of your flowers, the plants and any furniture or fencing you have in your garden. There’s likely going to be some that are dead or things that have gone rusty or broken. With that in mind, clear it up and chuck it out. You want to be able to see what you’re working with once all the rubbish has been cleared out. From there, you can look at what’s needed and go about purchasing the relevant things.

Plant Things That Are Winter-Proof

That is a lot of plants that are going to well during various times of the year. What you want in your garden is certain plants and nature that can sustain themselves during the coldest times of the month. Take a look at Hedgeplants Heijen to get an idea of what’s available and what will last through these colder temperatures. Shrubs placed around the outside of your garden can help shape the space and to make it feel more structured.

Keep On Top Of The Lawn

Keeping things trim and tidy is important because it will help to maintain the health of everything in the garden. One place that needs focusing on is the lawn area. Depending on how much or how little you have will dictate how much effort you need to put into it to make it look neat and presentable. A lawn needs mowing every six-eight weeks, and when the cold weather hits, that timing might be affected slightly due to excess rainfall or lack of it. Keep an eye on its growth and try to keep trim as often as you possibly can.

Be Wary Of Snow

Snow can be fairly harmless for the most part, but if you have a lot of it, then it can end up damaging your plants because of the weight of it. Whenever there’s heavy snowfall, walk around the garden and knock off any snow from all the plans and any bushes or shrubs that look a little weighted down by it. It only takes you seconds and can save you the hassle of having to replace any plants that have died due to too much breakage in the plant’s structure.

Looking after your garden during the winter is important so that it’s ready for the warmer months to come around and for you to be able to enjoy it to the fullest. Use these tips to help keep your garden fresh and healthy.

How do you maintain your garden during the winter months?

Charlotte x

Baking- Bonfire Buns

Baking is something which we love to do. For some reason in the autumn months when the weather is colder there is more opportunities to bake. Jess and I love to bake and try at any opportunity to bake we do it is something most weekends. Today we are going to share with you something which we made last bonfire night for sure this is going to be something which we make again this year. They are super simple and fun to make. So here is the method which we used.

Ingredient

For the Buns

50g butter

100g chocolate chips

3tbsp golden syrup

100g cornflakes/rice crispies

For the icing

65g Soft butter

250g Icing Sugar

1-2 Tbsp Milk

Orange Food Colouring

Flakes

Method
  1. The first thing you need to do is make the buns. To do this you need to melt the butter, chocolate and golden syrup on the hob.
  2. Once they are fully melted pour the cornflakes or rice crispies in. Stir until you have them all coated with the mixture.
  3. Divide the mixture into the cupcake cases and leave to set in the fridge. I think we left them in for an hour or two until they were set
  4. To make the icing mix 65g of soft butter with 250g icing sugar and 1-2 tbsp milk. This is going to give you the icing.
  5. Add orange food colouring you can add as much as you want you will just get a more vibrant orange fire.
  6. If the mixture is too thick add a bit more milk.
  7. Add the icing to the top of the buns stack them high like a fire.
  8. Crumble little bits of flake or any chocolate. Add them to the top of the icing in order to make it look like wood which has not burned yet.

Is there anything which you bake or do specially for bonfire night?

Charlotte xx

Books I Have Read In September 2019

Today I am back sharing the books which I have read in the month of September. I love been able to look on the books which I have read in previous months. Hopefully it can give some of you inspiration on books which you may want to read as well. I know I get so much inspiration for new books from others. I have currently only done two of these one in May and one in August. However, I want to try and do them monthly if it is possible. So on to the books which I have had my head in this month.

Late Night Talking by Leslie Schnur 2/5 Stars

Plot– Every night on her show, Sterling Behavior, Jennie Sterling vents with her listeners about rude mobile phone users, poor gym etiquette, and other annoyances of modern life. When New York mogul Nicholas Moss buys the station. She is pushed to increase the ratings and goes too far, risking the loss of everything important to her.

My Thoughts–  I will admit that I did not love this book. It is one which has been on my bookcase to read for a long time and I thought I would give it a go. The viewpoint switches a lot and sometimes it’s hard to tell where you are until the second paragraph. This may have just been me though. I felt like I did not connect to any of the characters and was waiting for the big plot twist which never came. The ending was very predictable as well I think I guessed it before half way though. Late Night Talking is an OK book but for sure is not the best best chic lit.

Last Chance By Sarah Dessen 3/5 Stars

Plot– Colie doesn’t expect her trip to the North Carolina coast to change a thing. But when she finds a job being a  waitress at the Last Chance cafe. She also finds acceptance, new friends and the beginnings of romance.

My Thoughts– This is a book which I have had on my to be read list for such a long time. I think I purchased it when I preferred young adult books. This book is not one of my favourites for a couple of reasons the first there is a lot of fat-shaming and slut-shaming and girl-hate and just really horrendous unjustified nonsensical bullying along the way. The book seemed to end so quickly like it was almost rushed.The main character of this book was very annoying she seemed think she was better than anyone else in the book.

The Bridesmaid Pact By Julia Williams 4/5 Stars

Plot– One for all and all for one! As children, Sarah, Dorrie, Beth and Caz were inseparable and vowed to one day be each others bridesmaids. But life got complicated. Now they have one last chance to fulfil their promise.

My Thoughts-  This is a book which I thought was going to be really easy to read and all about weddings. There are some weddings within the book. However, the story is more about four friends coming back together after strained relationships with each other. There is almost 4 stories going on within this book some could have done with expanding a little bit more. But for a book under 400 pages this is expected with 4 huge story lines. The ending you could have guessed from about 3/4 of the way through the book thought. I wanted there to be a plot twist. I thought the jumping between years and not getting to know some of the characters was a bit annoying. Overall I enjoyed this book and would read more by Julia Williams in the future.

Me Before You By JoJo Moyes 5/5 Stars

Plot–  Lou Clark knows lots of things. She knows how many footsteps there are between the bus stop and home. She knows she likes working in The Buttered Bun tea shop and she might not love her boyfriend Patrick. What Lou doesn’t know is she’s about to lose her job or that knowing what’s coming is what keeps her sane.
Will Traynor knows his motorcycle accident took away his desire to live. He knows everything feels very small and rather joyless now and he knows exactly how he’s going to put a stop to that.
What Will doesn’t know is that Lou is about to burst into his world in a riot of colour. And neither of them knows they’re going to change the other for all time.

My Thoughts- For sure this is not a romantic novel despite how the cover may look. This is an emotional book it had me close to tears at several stages rarely does a book have the ability to do this to me. I do not want to give too much away in case you have not read the book if you have not you really need to. The characters Will and Lou are amazing for me I felt like I really contected to them both. I did not want the book to end for sure because I felt like I connected to them both. This is a book which I could not actually put down I wanted to know what happened to Will. For sure I am going to have to get my hands on the other books in this series. I now this is not a book which I am going to forget in a while.

What books have you managed to finish this month?

Charlotte xx

 

 

 

 

Four Ways To Save For Your Child’s Future

All parents want the best for their children in the future, and want to help them out as much as they can. Setting up some savings for their future can be a great way to help them. They could use the money for University, an apprenticeship or for a deposit on a house. But what are the best ways to set up these long term savings?

The average student leaves University with student debts of over £50,000. University can be a very expensive experience. Saving for a house is getting harder too, and your children are sure to be very grateful for something to put towards the deposit for their first home. Saving for University can be hard, even if they leave in accommodation like the student accommodation studio by Fortis, which are designed to be budget friendly. If you save early, you can give them quite a bit of help. 

Junior Cash ISA

Open a Junior Cash ISA for your children. With an ISA, you can save up to £4260 each year. Your child will be able to access the money when they reach 18, and use it to fund studies or a home. The big advantage of cash ISAs like this is that they are tax free, so you won’t lose money on making savings

Junior Stocks And Shares ISA

Instead of a Cash ISA, you could opt for a stocks and shares ISA. These can have much greater returns than a cash option, but is higher risk than a normal savings account. To balance out the risk, spread your investments across a few different markets and sectors. 

If you’re saving for your children, you will be less likely to be impacted by short term swings in the stock market, as you won’t be wanting to cash out your investments for a while, giving your savings plenty of time to grow. 

Pension Lump Sum

If you’re an older parent, you could consider helping your children with a lump sum from your pension. Start saving as much as you can as early as you can, and you should be able to save up a generous amount. 

Pensions are a tax efficient method of saving. At the moment, you can withdraw up to the first 25% of your pension as a lump sum tax free. If you’re 55 or over, you can withdraw this sum and use it fund your children through higher education. If you do want to do this, take advice from a professional, so you don’t end up with less money for your own retirement. 

Offshore Bonds

You could invest in offshore bonds. Offshore bonds mean that your bond is an investment vehicle to control how much tax you pay, who you pay it too and when you pay. They are sometimes called portfolio bonds or tax wrappers. Bonds are set up by life insurance companies. They will set up the bond in a country with a favourable tax regime. You won’t have to pay tax in the UK on these bonds if you don’t bring them into the UK as income or capital.  Again, be sure of the tax rules wherever you take out the bonds, and ask an expert to help manage this risky process.

How do you save for your child’s future?

Charlotte xx

4 Big Mistakes To Avoid When Moving House

Moving house is always a big task and there is a long list of things that you need to organise before moving day. It’s going to be stressful, but a lot of people make things harder than they need to be because they don’t plan the move properly and they make a few basic mistakes. If you are moving house soon, you need to avoid these common mistakes. 

Not Hiring A Moving Company 

Moving house is more expensive than people think and some people decide that they’re going to save some money by not hiring a moving company and doing it themselves instead. The problem is, you are far more likely to break things if you just cram them into the back of the car, and you will have a lot more stuff to move than you anticipate. That’s why you need a removals company when you move house, there’s no way around it. It makes the whole thing far less stressful and you don’t have to worry about anything getting broken along the way. 

Rushing The Move 

Moving day is never fun and you probably just want it over and done with. But it’s important that you don’t rush things because that’s when you are going to make mistakes. It’s important that you take your time with the packing and if you need to do more than one trip, that’s just the way it’s going to be. It’s better to put some things in storage (visit https://www.magentastorage.co.uk/ for some good deals) and bring it over to the new house at a later date. Otherwise, you will end up trying to cram too much in at once and things will get broken. 

Leaving The Packing Too Late 

People always underestimate how long the packing will take. You have a lot more stuff than you realise and it will take longer than you think to pack everything up. That’s why it’s always best to start early. If you start packing weeks before the move, you can do an hour here and there and get it all done gradually without stressing. But if you leave it all until the weekend before, you’ll be spending some long days getting it all done. When you pack quickly, you don’t pack efficiently either, so everything will just be shoved in randomly and it will be a nightmare to find things. But if you leave yourself plenty of time, you can group things together properly and label everything so unpacking is simple and quick. 

Not Measuring Your Furniture 

Measuring furniture before you move is an absolute must. You don’t want to arrive at the new house and try to move your sofa in, only to find that you can’t get it through the door. But this is a step that a lot of people forget and it can cause some big problems. Before the move, always measure the furniture and the rooms and doorways at the new house so you can be sure that it will fit in. 

If you can avoid these mistakes, moving day will be a lot less stressful and you can avoid any big disasters.

How did you avoid some of the stress when you was moving?

Charlotte

Our Weekly Meal Plan 18th October

Today I am going to be sharing with you the meals which we have been consuming this week. There is a wide range of meals this week. There is some more special meals this week as it is the last full week that Joe is going to be home till December. So I have decided that we are going to splash out a little bit, there is some of out favourites on this meal plan. Now on to the meals hopefully these will give you some inspiration.

Monday-Spicy Thai Noodles, this is a meal which we are having because noodles are one of my favourites to consume. Spicy food at the moment is something which I can still consume I now there is a chance that this is going to change. Another bonus of this meal is that we had a lot of the ingredient in to so this is a cheap meal.

Tuesday- Pulled Pork, this is a meal which I am looking forward to it is a Katy recipe. This is one which we have made in the past and loved. We have another scan and a meeting with the consultant on Tuesday.  So having a slow cooker meal works really well for this. For sure this is a meal which I am looking forward to consuming this week.

Wednesday- Paprika Chicken Casserole, we have some chicken thighs left in the freezer which I do want to use. These were left from a previous recipe. For sure with the weather changing a casserole is something which I think we could all do with. I might serve this with some mash potatoes I am unsure. I think we have Jess at home for this meal actually as well.

Thursday-Creamy Mushroom Chicken, this is a meal which we should have had last week however, we didn’t do it for some reason. I have all the ingredient in so I thought I might as well make. This is going to be served with either rice or some kind of potato element. I am unsure which we are going to be doing yet.

Friday- Gammon eggs and chips, today we are going to be having one of Joe’s favourite meal. Which is super simple this is one which we have not had in a long time. This is a super easy meal and one which I think I will be able to do make which mean Joe can have a night off cooking. For sure this is one which again I am looking forward to as well.

Saturday- Spag Bol. This is a meal we are making while Joe is home because this is one of his special meals. He seems to be able to make it a lot better than me. For sure this is a meal which I think we will be serving with garlic bread because this is something which goes perfectly. I know there is going to be clean plates all around when it comes to this meal.

Sunday- Takeaway, we are going to be having a takeaway this is something which we have not done in a long time. We are going to be at an event ran by Baby Dinosaurs and I know after a long day on my feet all day I think I am going to want something simple. For sure we have not chosen which takeaway we are going to be consuming yet.

Of course, like every meal plan, this is linked up with the amazing Katy. I get a lot of the inspiration from her and the linky which she runs. If you are struggling and consuming the same meals I would recommend checking it out. You may find a meal which you love.

What meals are you planning on consuming this week?

Charlotte xxx

More Love, But Less Space! Making Room For A Second Baby In A Small House

While initially, one of the major worries of having another child is this you wouldn’t be able to extend your love even to accommodate, after a while, you realise that this isn’t an issue, but the practical problems really are! If you live in a small house, it can be difficult to try and make room for another person, even when they’re so small! With this in mind, how can you start to double your space like you will double your love?

Is It Worth Trying To Declutter? 

It might make all the difference if you don’t get into this habit. And if you think there’s a lot of your worldly possessions that you just can’t bear to part with, maybe it’s worth putting it into self storage? After a while, your children will amass an abundance of toys, as you already know with your first one! This is why you have got to declutter, but also think about the items that will be important to you. Maybe it’s worth creating a little time capsule, or a memory box so you have, at the very least, a handful of souvenirs to remember your children by at such a young age.

Start Making The Most Of Every Corner 

Being clever with your space is crucial, and every nook and cranny needs utilising. And besides, for the first 6 months of your baby’s life, you don’t necessarily need to give them a room just for themselves. Putting the Moses basket in the corner of your bedroom, and, at the very least, putting some decor in that corner so it belongs to them, is a simple way to make the most of every little space.

Get Into The Habit Of Sharing 

It might be worth thinking twice about this, especially if there’s a considerable age gap, but if you want to get into the habit of sharing, you may want to have the children share the same room. It saves space in the home, but it also helps them to bond. Naturally, if one tends to wake up a lot in the night, this is going to disturb the other one, so think twice! But if they are both heavy sleepers, then not only are you incredibly lucky, but you can certainly make the most of that bedroom!

Go Vertical 

Take a leaf out of the books of people who live in small apartments. If they want to make the most of the space, they have got to start storing things vertically. And, you might think this adds to a more cluttered look, it all depends on where you store the items. A space like the kitchen, for example, may very well suit a more vertical approach to storage, but the living room may not. Going vertical is a perfect way to make the most of small spaces.

Use Hidden Storage

And multi-purpose furniture is crucial if you’re trying to make more room for people. For example, a pram can double up as a basket or a car seat, as well as a swing that can turn into a highchair. Hidden storage isn’t just about putting things under the sofa!

How did you make room for your new arrival if you did not have too much space?

Charlotte xx

My First Pregnancy Book Review

As you all know by now we are expecting player 4 in January. Since we was not planning on keeping Jess she was going to be adopted. This meant that I did not become attached to the bump and almost did not care what stage baby was at. Of course this, time around I want to be emerged in all this pregnancy and bump related. I was kindly gifted this book which is called My First Pregnancy by Dr Joanna Girling. This book is all you need to know about pregnancy and hopefully result in a very happy and healthy pregnancy.

There is also so much which has changed in the past years since I was pregnant with Jess. This book has 11 chapters. It has everything which you need to know from first finding out that your pregnant to the first few weeks of having a newborn.

In the first chapter it is I’m pregnant now what? I have found this to be useful because it has what is going to happen at the appointments which we are having. For us some of these are new despite having a child in the past because we did not find out until 26 weeks. This means that there is no shocks when it comes to appointments such as having to do urine samples. Or you may need a transvaginal scan this is something which I have had to have a couple of times. As a result of having a cyst and then them not been too happy with my placenta’s position. This could be scary if you gave not had one previously or even know what it is. It also does help you understanding your notes. This is something which I always look at because even I have forgotten and want to know.

The second chapter looks at the baby’s development week by week. This is the kind of information which you usually find on the apps. It is nice for the vegetables to be ones which we can get in the UK instead of the USA. Like some of the apps. This does tell you how your little one is developing like at the moment as I write this post I am 25 weeks and it tells me the baby’s lungs are now fully formed. This has weekly updates from week 1 to week 41. I have found myself telling my partner about elements of this second.

I think the chapter which I found most useful from this book is the one about pains and pampering.This is so helpful because it can tell you if some of the symptoms you are having are normal It also show you what you can do to reduce them. For me this time I have been struggling with headaches and feeling like I am going to have a nose bleed. These are thing which I am going to be asking my midwife about when I see her. But this book has meant that I have not been googling which can scare any new parent.

The chapter about lifestyle and healthy eating is one which I have not been reading as much. I seem to be able to remember what I can and what I can not consume. I know this is one which first time mums may actually really use. After all this book is aimed at first time mums. It does also tell you about hot tubs and travelling abroad when you are pregnant. It did remind me that I can not use hot tubs if we go on a forest holiday’s break as a Babymoon.

There is also a chapter about career which includes things such as having to tell work that you are pregnant. All the rights which you have when you are on maternity leave. Of course, been self employed and my blog been the main income for me this is not something which is relevant however, I know this could be super useful for a lot of people. I know if I was not self employed I would want to know everything because it can change so much.

Chapter 7 is one all about relationships this is one again which I have not used a lot. I do not expect there to be a lot of changes in our relationship. The only one which may change is with Jess because of course, we are going to have to share our attention between her and player 4. I know how important this is because it is easy to lose friends and relationships change so much when you have had a child.

There is a whole section about the birth which is one which I would recommend reading. I have read it even though we are actually going to be having an elect c section. This means that some of the section is not going to be relevant because I will not be having a natural delivery. Even though I do plan on actually doing a birth plan so we can have a c-section that we want.

Another section which I found to be amazing is the baby shopping section of this book. This makes you think about things which you may not have thought about before when it comes to baby shopping. I will admit there is things which I had forgotten about thins which decided against using with Jess. It also has a checklist of questions which you might want to ask before making some of the bigger purchases. I think this is going to be a section which I keep coming back and referring to.

A section which I feel like I really will need to read later in my pregnancy this is the final few weeks. It explains how you may be feeling this may not be as bad for me as we know the date as such player 4 should arrive. The part which I think is the most important is the what to pack in your hospital bag. For sure I will end up watching youtube videos on this. I know there is something which no doubt I will end up forgetting. It also stays what do in the run up when you are on the final countdown. This is a great idea because sometimes you do not know what to do for the best.

The next but last section is about labour and what to expect along with what can happen. Of course, as I have mentioned. This is not that relevant for me now because of the fact that we are going to be having an elect c-section. I do actual like reading about what happens should I go in to labour naturally and if I change my mind. I know this is a section which some people may love because no two labours are actually the same.

The final section is the first few weeks, this is one which I would read before you little one arrives. This is because you are not going to have as much time when they are here. For sure this is going to be a section which I am going to be reading. I actually spent a week in hospital after having Jess. Hopefully I am only going to spend a couple of days in the hospital. I know there is going to be so much which I have actually forgotten about having a new born this I am going to be having a read of.

For sure I would recommend this book for first time parents or even if you have had a large age gap between your children. I know I have actually managed to forget so much about pregnancy and also having a newborn. You can purchase my first pregnancy on Amazon here.

Did you ever have any pregnancy books?

Charlotte xx

Baking- No Bake Halloween Spider Biscuits

So Halloween is approaching once the weather starts changing I also want to bake more. I think this is because I crave more sweet things when the weather is pants. Today I am going to be sharing with you with a no bake Halloween Spider Biscuits. These would be great to make on a rainy days when you need something to do. Even more so with half term coming up in the UK. .

Ingredients

Packet of Oreos

Icing Pens

Chocolate Chips

Packet of Strawberry Laces

Method
  1. Carefully split the oreo so you have the milk and one of the lids. This is something which you may want to do rather than your child.
  2. Cut the strawberry laces it does not matter how long you want to make them.
  3. Place 4 strawberry laces on each side of the oreo to make them look like spider legs
  4. Use a small amount of icing from the icing pen. Place this on the white milk part of the oero and stick the lid back on.
  5. Now your spider has legs and a body.
  6. Time to decorate their face use a small amount of icing and make two dot close to the top. Stick two chocolate chip on these dots this is going to be the eyes for your spider.
  7. Now you can decorate your spiders as you can see we did a wide range. We used the icing pens to decorate the rest of the spider.

As you can see these are super simple to make and something you can do with your children. For sure this is going to be something which we are going to do this October. Jess managed to do this when she was 3 however, I am sure she is going to have more fun this year.

Have you ever made any no baked spider biscuits?

Charlotte xx

 

 

 

Our Story- Baby Loss Awareness Week

This week from the 9-15th October is baby loss awareness week. Baby loss is something which we do not speak about a lot in the UK.  It seems all most like it is a taboo subject. However baby loss is something which affects 1 in 4 people in the UK. Whether this be miscarriage, infant loss or stillbirth. At least one person who you know will have been effected by baby loss.

Today I am going to share with your our story and why player 4 is actually our rainbow baby. Rainbow baby is a term used to describe a baby who was born after a miscarriage, stillborn or neonatal death. Back in June 2018 we suffered a missed miscarriage at 9 weeks. This is something which came as a shock to us. We still have no answer to as why this actually occurred. It is rare that you get an answer to why a miscarriage occurred. Luckily we have managed to have a rainbow baby. Hopefully the angel baby is looking after our rainbow until we get them in our arms in January.

Shortly after I handed my dissertation in that we found out that we were expecting a baby. It was a surprise we did not plan on falling pregnant. We were going to be moving house in the summer or we had hoped to. It may have not been the best circumstances however, we was looking forward to seeing what happened and potential becoming a family of 4.

We had decided not to tell people about the baby until at we had the scan at 12 weeks. For some reason I have always been scared that something is going to happen which will result in baby loss. Maybe it is due to 1 in 4 women suffering with this. Anyway I had started to become sick and feeling really rubbish with a pain in my almost hip area. It was getting worse and I was unable to sleep properly. I phoned the early pregnancy unit to inform them and get some advice on what to do.

This is when we were told to come in tomorrow because I was actually in York at the time. It would have been an hour drive back to Hull late at night. When we arrived at the hospital we were sent for a scan this is something which annoyed me a little bit. We were sent to the waiting room for the scan with people who were clearly pregnant. I get this is something which can not be helped but it almost felt insensitive. Lucky we were not waiting for long.

During the time between ringing the early pregnancy unit the night before I had started to experience some bleeding. This started to worry me because the doubt kicked in was something wrong with me or the baby?. During the scan I had to have an internal scan and this is when it was confirmed that the baby had passed away.  I should have been 11 weeks at this stage and the baby was only measuring 9 weeks. There also was no longer a heartbeat. I had suffered what is called a missed miscarriage. A missed miscarriage is one where the baby has died or not developed, but has not been physically miscarried.

We were then taken to a room where I had to have my bloods taken. I am unsure why this was maybe it is to check that I was not anaemic like I had been with Jess. Then we spoke about what the options where which were available to us at this time in order to completely miscarry.

I was given 3 options.  One was to have surgery this would have removed the tissue, however, like any surgery they would have been a recovery time. The thought of surgery is one which scares me because I think you are put under for this unlike when you have a c-section.  Another option was the wait and see approach, but because the baby had been passed away for a couple of weeks this is not one which we wanted. This was not guaranteed to work either.  The final option was the medical management. I was told that they would put some tablets in my mouth and I would have to wait 6 hours in the hospital to see if I passed the baby.

This happened on the Friday and we were booked in on the Tuesday for the next stage if you want to call it that. I remember having to be at the hospital for 9am I knew there was a change that I was going to be there all day. Lucky I had Joe there to keep me some company. I remember having to have the tablets which taste awful and you have to have them dissolve in your mouth. There was a lot of waiting around for the baby to pass which I found really hard. I was told that I could leave the ward or the special room which I had been in as long as I did not leave the hospital grounds.

By mid-afternoon I had been informed that I had passed half of the baby. This is not something which I wanted to hear I wanted this ordeal with baby loss to be over. Something which I will never forget during this process is actually finding out my dissertation grade while in the hospital. I was informed that once they had confirmed I had passed half as I was feeling ok I could leave the hospital.

I was informed that I should pass the rest of the baby in the next couple of days it could take up to a week. Luckily I had the support of Joe during this period. I remember it took till the Saturday to pass the rest of the baby. It happened after we had been viewing more houses to be honest I was in no fit state to actually do this.

We will never forget our angel baby for sure we will be burning a candle as part of wave of light which is October 15th at 7pm. This is to remember all the babies who were too precious for earth.

Remembering all the angel babies out there

Charlotte xx